英语翻译在你的心中真的有在乎过我吗,我是什么无聊时的玩伴?肆意玩弄的木偶?为何你要一次次的伤害我我已经给过你很多次机会,

英语翻译
在你的心中真的有在乎过我吗,我是什么无聊时的玩伴?肆意玩弄的木偶?为何你要一次次的伤害我
我已经给过你很多次机会,每当我心灰意冷想要放弃的时候你总是会给我新的希望,但却又一次一次将我伤的更深更痛,痛到我无法呼吸!
多少个夜里我无法入眠,多少次我对着镜子无助的哭泣,我的痛苦无法诉说只能埋在心底,这种感觉简直让我崩溃
我不止一次来到你家楼下,但是我不知道自己做的是对是错,总是又默默离开,那一天我拨通了你的电话,你没有接电话,是啊,你忙需要休息,哪像我如此清闲没事到处乱跑,就是为了一个解释,一个安慰!
我不想逼你,也不想为难你,我退出过但你不肯放手,如此的心痛你让我如何是好,我不知道你在担心什么,想什么,难道你感觉我是喜欢你的金钱吗?所以你担心?不是的,你可知道在我面前从不缺少金钱的诱惑,好多东西只要我开口,我就可以得到,你给得了的我可以拥有,你给不了的我同样可以拥有.但我却义无反顾的选择了你.你仔细想一想,你为我做过什么,为我付出了什么,对我的爱又坚持了多少,而我对你却从未改变过,而你欠我的却用一条条伤口来补偿了我,我的痛和委屈时是否知道,我不喜欢这种感觉!
每次当拥抱着我告诉我你爱我的时候,我的感觉是那么甜蜜,同时又是那么的没有安全感,因为我不知道在你说这句话的同时有没有在想着别人,什么时你候会离开.
你给我美好的幻想,同时又将我的爱情埋葬.你占据了我生命的绝大部分,为了你我甚至背弃了对父母的承诺,我为你付出那么多的感情为何你要将我伤的如此疼痛,我真的好痛好痛,好累好累.
我的幸福是你给的在乎,但是现在我已经没有力气再挣扎了,对不起,这样的等待我受不起,请不要怪我如此没有耐心 ,如此小气,只是我无法与别人分享我的爱人.这一次我不是在闹情绪,也不是退出,而是心死,我的心已经死了,彻底的埋葬,我不会祝福你因为我没有那么大度,我也不会恨你,因为恨得越深痛得越狠,但是我会流着这道伤口因为只有痛了才不会忘记.
不要再来找我了,就当作我已经在这个世界上消失了,忘了我吧,
对不起,我爱你.

好伤感呢.虽然我翻译的可能不是很完美.但我想尝试下.星期五晚上打出来.祝你幸福哈.选择心中那个答案 再问： thank you
再答： 上周打算回家结果改成这周了，晚了好久呢，不好意思哈，希望你找到自己的幸福。追求幸福是每个人的权利。翻译的你可以自己修改下哈。 i just wanna weather you really care about me. what am i for you ,a player or a puppet for fun? why you hurt me over and over again without thinking. i've given you so many chance .when i disappointed and wanted to give up,you always give me a new hope. But then,you know,i was hurt deeply and out of breath. i can't fall a sleep several night,cried facing the mirrow several times and had to hide my soeeow inside,which dive me crazy. i went by your home several times ,then went away silent because i don't know wheather it's true or false.do you remenber the day that i called you missing but you didn't pick up.i know,you need sleep and leave me alone to thinking,missing and finding a explaination. (后面请允许我省略点，外国人其实不喜欢那么抒情的句子) i dont know what you are worring, money? no! i do have everything i need and also i can get the thing i want.For ture, i don't want to break you down but i really devote myself to you。please think what you have done or paid to me and ours, a few. but you also hurt me. i don't like this kind of feeling full of pain and tears. when you are beside me holding and telling me you love me ,i feel so sweet but Insecure .when you away from me, i can't catch your mind . the beauty future you gave me and you burry it youself . i give your my whole life ,even cheat my parents,and i have nothing but pain now. i feel tired and bored your careless..i want to give up. i 'm sorry. forget me . sorry,i love you