January 29th,i have some words to say

January 29th,i have some words to say
i think this is a good way to practice my english.at least this moment these words are conveyed by english.these days i am confused by the law of the society.i don't know why the world i see by myself is so different from my teachers said.They always told me i should be honest,kindhearted and hard-working.i do as they said.but what the world giveme in return is cheating.I feel like a fool—I’ve done nothing but obey what teachers said and gain nothing.when i was woking hard,they were playing games,sleeping or walking out together.but the final results is just on the contrary.they got much and i got little.
am i too stupid or foolish?
do they lead a wrong way?
maybe different countries or nations have different culture.but i always think that some characterstics are in common ,such as honest,kindhearted and hard-working which my teachers taught me.i know no pain,no gain.yes and not every pain can get the proper gain.but,i think ,at least we have the fair opportunity.But without fair chance,it did not even give myself the simple chance of being able to try to work things out.i don't live in the fairy land and i know the reality has its cruelty ,but not in such way.i am a sophomore .my school which many high school students admire has its Black case work.
is this the law of the society and i dind't got it
i said not every pain can get the proper gain.i just wanna get the fair opportunity?
that i do my best didn't aim to be the first,i just left my self no pity.
do i want too much?

你现在只是暂时出于低谷期,有点迷失方向,暂时的迷茫.林子大了,什么样的鸟多有.人最大的敌人就是自己,不要和别人去攀比,要和自己比,只要认准方向,脚踏实地,一步步向上攀爬,你经历得越多,你的心胸会越来越宽广,总会打出属于自己的一遍天.至少你能将你的想法用英语讲出来,而我回答却只能用中文,老兄,你的英语比我强多了!