英语翻译一直以来,总是多愁善感,面对感情的危机,我除了极力的挽留,我离不开他,两年的感情,我舍不得,而他,一次又一次跟我

英语翻译
一直以来,总是多愁善感,面对感情的危机,我除了极力的挽留,我离不开他,两年的感情,我舍不得,而他,一次又一次跟我说分手,我真的很痛心,可是,我不能放弃,没有他,我该怎么度过以后的每一天,身边的朋友,都替我感到累,可是,我觉得只要我付出这些,能挽留的了他,我不在乎这些,我什么都在乎,我只要他,我真的希望他能明白我,我真的改好了,我的每一天都在为他活,或许有的人觉得我挺没用的,为了男人这样,可是,感情一旦陷下去了,真的很难很难再回头,放弃的那个过程好痛苦.以上这些,帮我翻译成英文,

All along, (I) am always sentimental: when facing crises of relationships, I don't know what else I can do other than holding it back/retaining this--I just can't leave without him.I hate to part with our love\relation that had lasted for 2 years. However he(,) kept on breaking up with me again and again{,never cared about my feelings/;I really felt hurt by this}.
But,I can't give up just like this, can I?{can I用作加重、强调语气.}[Without him,how am I supposed to get through each day?
The friends around me all felt (sorry and)tired for me. But still, I believe/think, as long as I can hold him back, I don't mind suffering; I don't care abut suffering. What I only care and what I only want/The only thing that I care about and want(,)is him.
I really do hope he could understand me.-I really did change for the better/ I've really started from a clean state, I'm living every single day for him.
Some people might think I'm quite useless, being like this just for a man.Anyway it's (really really hard/just impossible) to to mend my ways /turn back to safety again-getting out of that process is too painful...
feel sorry,同情,可选加上去不.另外还有很多提供选择的,都是要看你自己想要什么感觉.例如really really hard,真的很难很难,给你提供选择：完全不可能.前面的,大多都是你选的,后面的,大多都是提议/可作的改动.