英语翻译真的好急 这是我所有的分数了...纪念我死去的爱情当我知道所有事情的真相时,我真的找不到当初的那种悲伤的感觉了!

英语翻译
真的好急 这是我所有的分数了...
纪念我死去的爱情
当我知道所有事情的真相时,我真的找不到当初的那种悲伤的感觉了!我想我这么久可能真的把你给忘记了!没有人能明白我当时有多需要你,也没有人知道我多爱你.我想也许你并不是爱我的,如果爱为什么不为了我而去努力啊!呵呵...因为你对我也没有信心!
记得最后一次见面,感觉好像有事情发生一样.我想你当时也在挣扎吧!舍不得,呵呵
我真的希望你能像个男人一样长大,为了自己以后,不再接受父母的安排,自己去面对以后的路.真的~我想你也许永远也不会做到的.因为你太懦弱了,连自己心爱的东西都不知道争取,你让我怎么去爱你啊?就算我们现在没有分开,我知道了你现在为了我而退缩的时候,我也会跟你分手的.因为你不再配我去爱你!不值得了!
现在的我过的并不是很好,但是我清楚我想要的是什么?我虽然没有你那么有钱,但我会用我勤劳的双手去争的,而不会接受父母的任何安排,我想那种自由的感觉你永远也不会知道的!
我感觉你好悲哀,悲哀到不能自己去恋爱,而要父母给你找门当户对的,都什么年代了,你的父母也不想想他们当初是怎么在一起的?呵呵.
哎...我真的很傻,你说什么我都相信.如果当初我去证实你到底有没有外遇,也许我能提前知道事情的真相吧!也许我会去为了自己爱情,为了自己最爱的人而去争取.但是看到懦弱的你,我只想流泪离开!你不再会是我心中那个最爱了!
分分和和,注定我们没有那在一起的缘分.谢谢她让我们相识,也谢谢你曾经对我的爱!那块伤疤永远也不会好了!那是永远的伤!记得你欠我的太多了!

A memorial to my dead love
The moment when I found out the truth of everything,I already could not find the initial sorrowful feeling.I think I have already forgotten you after all.No one can understand how much I needed you at that time; no other know how much I loved you.I believe that you were not truly loved me.If you did then why did you not stand up for me?That was because you did not have confidence in me!
Remembering the last meeting,I had the impression that things happened.I believe that you were debating at that time then – did not know how to face it.Haha!
My current life is not too good,but then I am clear what I want.Although I am not that rich as you are,I will use my hard-working hands to earn it.I would not accept any of my parents’ arrangement.I believe you never would understand that kind of freedom feeling.
I can tell that you are too sorrowful,too distressed to the point that you cannot even love someone.It is bad that your parents have to find a match for you based on your wealth.What kind of society now?You are still following the same game!Why can’t your parents think about how they met each other at the first place?Haha!
Sigh~I am too stupid.I always have believed what you have told me.If I have proven that you cheated on me at the first place,perhaps I could have found out the truth much earlier.Perhaps I would stand up for my love and the one I love.However,when I see the non-daring you,I could do nothing but leave with tears.You will not be the one I love the most anymore!
Getting together and depart again and again,it is determined that we do not have the fate of staying together.Thanks God to let us meet each other,let’s love each other!I also thank you for your love.That scar you left on me will not be cured!That kind of wound is forever!I will always remember how much you have owed me!