英语翻译If i want to understand myself,then i have to understand

英语翻译
If i want to understand myself,then i have to understand the world.If i want to understand the world,i must start to talk.
one of my biggest problem is social skill.I do afraid of people.I scare of talking to them.I scare of making mistakes in front of them.I scare to stand in front of them.It is 自我暗示.Everytime,i stand in front of people.i warn myself to be careful.Everytime,I talk to people,I need to show up courage.It seems like talking to someone is the hardest thing in the world.It is because my constantly moving life.It is because the long lose best friendship .No body has ever been my best friend for so long because i do not have enough time to spend with them.Thus,I do not think there is any one who really know me,undertand me,and really care of me.It is the evil cycle.I move a lot,I lose my best friends.nobody really know me,I talk less,i do not talk,i lose the willing to talk,i do not want to talk any more.
I move too much ,
i do not like to talk,
i scare of talking,
i lack someone who understand me
i am a lonely beast
i need help but i am too stubborn to ask for help
i started to isolate myself from the rest
i started to like the feeling of loneliness because the ability to adept.
i started to lose the common language of the world.
i am an outcast right now.

要了解我自己,我就必须了解这个世界.要了解这个世界,我就必须与人交流.
我最大的障碍在于社交技巧.对于人们的惧怕,使我惧怕与他们交谈,惧怕在他们面前犯错出丑,甚至连站在他们面前都让我感到惧怕.这是一种自我暗示.每当我站在人们面前的时候,我都要不断得给自己鼓劲.和某一人交流好象是世界上最困难的事.而这些感觉的产生是因为我不断的搬迁,长期没有得到最好的友谊所造成的.因为我没有足够的时间花在人们身上,导致长期以来我都没有最好的朋友.所以,我认为没有任何人真正的知道,理解,关心我.这是一个恶性循环:不断迁徙,没有友谊.没人理解,交谈变少,甚至不交谈.我失去了交谈的兴趣,再也不想再交谈.
我过多的迁徙,
我不喜欢沟通,
我惧怕交谈,
我缺少理解我的人,
我是一头孤独的野兽,
我需要帮助,但是顽固的我却不去寻求帮助.
我开始将自己从其他人中孤立.
我开始喜欢这种孤独的感觉,因为我已经开始适应孤独.
我开始忘记这个世界的语言
我现在已经被这个世界抛弃了.
PS:语法.不..也许是一篇很奇特的文章 - -