英语翻译Ten years,it’s a long time enough that God gives me to g

英语翻译
Ten years,it’s a long time enough that God gives me to get away from my painful past.In fact I almost forget the special day till my Mum talk about it.During those years,I experience three stages.I hate everyone and distrust everyone even my best friends.Then I start to know everyone has its pains,and I can’t always live in this shadow.At last I cry lesser and lesser and know how to be easy with everything.(10.20 go on)I even thought I was so peace and reasonable that I wouldn’t be angry when people hurt me.But three days ago,I changed my mind though I hated my change.My boyfriend betrayed in his heart.He betrayed himself.He loves another girl all along.At last I know For me I just a temporary succedaneum.For his explanation I just could not believe,but cooled down because I realized it was my fault.Many girlfriends warned me that men will always love his lover who gives him deeply feeling except herself.I considered he will be different,and don’t care about his past till now.So I made a big mistake.I forgave him but I can’t forget his words which hurt me so much and I think I will not trust his feeling anymore.One thing I know is that he don’t love me.He even cheated himself.
In my home,I will not care about your exist.I hope it’s my last time crying for a man who don’t love me,it sounds a stupid thing.

10年来,它长的时间不够,上帝,让我摆脱我的痛苦的过去.事实上,我几乎忘记特别的日子,直到我妈妈谈论它.在那些年里,我经历了三个阶段.我讨厌大家和不信任,每个人,甚至我最好的朋友.然后我开始知道,每个人都有自己的痛苦,我不能永远活在这个阴影.我终于哭较小和较轻的,并知道怎样容易与一切.（ 10.20下去） ,我什至以为我是那么和平和合理的,我不会生气,当人们伤害了我.但3天前,我改变了主意,虽然我恨我的改变.我的男朋友背叛了他的心.他背叛了自己.他喜欢另一个女孩始终.我终于知道,对我来说,我只是一个临时succedaneum .我实在无法相信,但冷却下来,因为我意识到他是我的错.许多女友警告我说,男人会永远爱他的情人谁给他深深感觉,除了自己.我认为,他就会不一样,不关心他的过去到现在.因此,我作出了一个很大的错误.i原谅了他,但我不能忘记他的话伤害了我那么多,我想我也不会相信他的感觉了.一件事,我知道的是,他不爱我.他甚至骗自己.
在我的家乡,我也不会关心你的存在.我希望这是我最后一次哭,为一个人不爱我,这听起来是一种愚蠢的事.