英语翻译why it is not painful this do with me you know your alwa

英语翻译
why it is not painful this do with me you know your always hurt me why you dont think when were start and after you get my all mine.now you ask me that is fault of our god.i know this relation so big big faulf of our god.so that every night i always pray for god that forgive our sin.i know that my parents and my children's need's me.and also you your family needs you specially your wife.why you dont ask to me directly that you dont like me and you never love me?so that you dont have so mini reason that ask to me.it must be good for me and i must be accept.that is your decision what can i do to accept who is me to force you to love me I'm just only woman that i stuped to love you and early trust you.why i love you if i know that you hurt me.you know my brain is to exhaushon to think even my work i cannot cor centrate i always mistake ,you know I'm like the things that after you use you through at the garbages,may be i know that your guilty that you make lier to your wife.now i need to force my self to forgot you and to forgot what happened with you and me.your such a lier you'll never do you promises to me that you'll never hurt me.sorry to say this dont blame me to getting argry with you because you hurt me so much deep inside my heart.thank you for your lying with me i never forgot this all of my life!your such a lier!and thank's for your fake loving me!you nothing can do,because for me its to hard again that i believe you you hurt me to much.and i well not force you to love me.its you what is your truely decided i respect but dont blame me if i angry with you because this is not easy for me to accept for what happen we both.even me its my fault because to love you and i trust you evry early.i cannot think for what happened after all this.why you dont answer me i ask you a question if sometimes you love me?just i what to know only if yes or not!why you dont answer me!for what if we continue this relation if your not happy for me just like only lies each other.i well not force you to love me if you dont like me i respect.just i only thank's for your fake loving me even a few day's only.and you dont force your self to love me.i just only move on.i think someday well come that i accept what happened we both.its true that you feel painful?or just you ask only.god is always there to help who's needs a halp .your always remined!now i have no reason to leave in singapore for so long.two years is enough fo me you read all your letter for me so that you know how could you lies me.so so so good to lies!i wish you happy!

大概是关于两个人出轨后,后悔了,女的写给男的话,全文翻译如下：
为什么你很清楚你在伤害我却不会感到痛苦?为什么你在得到我的全部后就不去想想我们开始的那段日子.现在你却说这是上天的错.我也知道我们之间的这种关系是个很大的错误.因此每天晚上我总是在祈祷,请上帝原谅我们的罪恶.我
的父母和我的孩子需要我.你的家人,特别是你的妻子,也需要你.为什么你不直接告诉我你不喜欢我,你从没爱过我?这样你就不必用那些冠冕堂皇的理由来骗我.如果是这样,我会更好受些.这是你的决定,我能做些什么?我能做的只有接受现实.我只是一个女人,一个傻傻爱你,轻易相信你的女人.如果我知道你会伤害我,我也不会去爱你.我现在满脑子都是乱的,不能集中精力工作,总是犯错.我觉得我就像你手里的东西,用过后就被扔进垃圾桶.可我知道你有罪,你对你妻子说了谎.现在我要强迫我自己忘了你,忘了你和我之间发生过的一切.你是个骗子,你发誓说永远不会伤害我,可你没有做到.抱歉说了些可能让你生气的话,但你把我伤得体无完肤,我恨你!谢谢你给我的虚假的爱,我一辈子也不会忘记!你个大骗子!
你也不用多做什么,因为对我来说,伤了一次,就不会有第二次.我不会强迫你爱我.这是你的决定,我尊重你,但是不要怪我会恨你,我一个女人要接受这样的事实很不容易.我自己也有错,为了得到你的爱,我轻易相信了你.我不敢想这一切之后会是怎样.你爱我吗?为什么你不回答我?我只要你回答爱还是不爱,为什么你不回答我?如果你感到不幸福,我们却还继续这种关系,我觉得我们之间就只剩下相互说谎.所以,如果你不喜欢我,我不会强迫你爱我,我尊重你的选择.谢谢你的“爱”,尽管时间不长.你也不必强迫你爱我.我就这么慢慢过,我想有一天我会平静地接受你我之间发生的这一切.你真的感到很痛苦吗?还是只是有点心痛.上帝总是在帮助那些需要帮助的人,永远不会帮你!现在我没有理由离开新加坡这么久,两年就足够了.你自己读读你写给我的信,看看你是怎么骗我的.多么擅长说慌啊!最后,
大意是这样,翻译得不太好,不要见怪