Some disintegration to still want to cry?

I want to cry I dont want to cry I just want to cry. Do not want to cry I really want to cry l want to cry but cry not to come out want to laugh,want to cry,want to live,and want to fly. Why do you want to cry! i want nothing but to cry Even if I hurt want to cry ;"I ,only want to cry 什么意思? But I just want to cry